Charl‘s Life

22 January 2011

2011-01-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

Dear Blogger,

Long time no see/talk/write.... Yeah too busy for the past 3/4 weeks of school. Sec 3 life is tougher than sec 2 by 1.5 times. I find nearly my entire weekend doing homework instead of doing out or using computer. But still can cope, as for now... I like my new class 307! So many awesome and friendly people there. Of course i'm not saying i dont like my sec 2 class, 204'11 was still as awesome as 307 (: Chem teacher Mrs Gan was nice but sarcastic in away, but at least her lesson is interesting.Wont fall asleep unlike Mr Lau the physics teacher lesson... Physics was so damn boring,especially it was taught by Mr Lau. Somemore if fall asleep, he will punish you by calling you stand for the rest of the period. Mrs Foo, Mr Lee lesson are way way better than Mr Lau. Anyway, Mr Rafi SS lesson was not bad too. I thought that Mr Rafi is a fierce teacher, that type of teacher that send you to detention if you fool around in his class, but no, Hes so lenient and funny. Mr Tan Bio lesson also not bad. But since i like Bio so much, which teacher doesnt really matter to me.

Ok Now about the camp? Most Anticipated post. Haha Camp was damn awesome, Shout as a class, Cheer as a class and work together as a class. At first i still thought the camp will be like damn sian, tired and the living condition will be damn disgusting. But din know Labrador Campsite turns out to be quite nice. The bed still got mattress, Shower still got doors and all these. Yeah, sad thing was, I sprained my ankle during Day 1 =.= , So i spent like the next 2 days sleeping,talking,watching at the sick bay... But seeing my classmates getting muddy all over their shirt due to games and all these, just feel abit pity that i din get the chance to play. Food was still manageable,except the quantity is way way too little for my diet. Army ration food are quite nice too, though i dont know why so many people complain about it. I find it quite nice, especially the teriyaki chicken pasta. But the good thing was, the people at the sick bay were treated Macdonalds. Haha (: at least get to have some outside food during the 3D2N camp. And the funny thing was, instead of getting more bonded with my classmates, I got more bonded and get to know more people at the sick bay from other classes. As i spent nearly everyday at the sick bay, I got nothing much to write about. But thought i din really participate, I still learnt the 5 Principles of Success in life. Also really thank all the PMs for making the camp fun and awesome, They are really pathetic, Losing their voice during the 3 days camp... Lastly, thanks Linghang for lending me pen, toothpaste and other useful materials during the camp. Haha thats about it..

And thank you Adam Khoo Learning Technology for teaching me the important values of life. (:

Yours Sincerely,
Signed !@#$%^&

January 01,2011,New Year Resolution

2011-01-01T02:33:00.002+08:00

1st January 2011, Sunny-SunShower

Hoho its new year now... and 10 days i haven blog... But i'm sorry.. i forget what happened or i'm just too tired to write everything out in the past 10 days. Yeah its just definitely very fun for me... Interesting last few weeks of holidays. (:

And today, I meant yesterday , 31 december 2010.. I finally said it out.. Ok i know I self sabo myself by telling myself no point in saying...But after hearing Mrs Crothers saying about the self-sabotage actions..I know that my self-sabotage level is damn high.. maybe 8/10? .. But no.. I just want this to end..I'm not going to bring this self-sabotage behaviour to next year..So i tell myself... No point bringing the regret over to year 2011.. As well just say it out on the very last day of 2010?And yes i said it out... and obviously before i say it, i already knew whats the answer.. thats why i'm prepared... "No" Yeah.. thats the answer.. But nvm its ok (: I'm fine with it..So i guess i'm not going to self-sabotage myself in year 2011?Or at least... decrease the behavior level..Yeah.. that will be one of my new year resolution..

Ok enough of the big values and boring self-talk... Talk about countdowning 2011.. My mum actually allows my friends to come my house,play mahjong and celebrate! ... First time ever, got friends come to my house... haha... Though there are loads of restrictions and house rules here and there but i guess my friends enjoy it... Sorry, my mum is a seriously clean-freak... Cant even stand a speck of dust..Anyway, To: Mingyong,Mervin,Jacinta & Jiajia seriously.. thank you you guys for countdowning and the very very first New year wish from you guys.. And of course, enjoy the screaming,shouting,watching fireworks session (: i think all of us had an awesome night i guess? haha lets do it next time again !

Ok This are my new year resolution...

1st:Able to cope with my sec 3 studies

2nd:Hopefully,Can reduce my facebooking time.

3rd:Do my best as the Sound Crew for Drama SYF 2011

4th:Achieve good results for sec 3

5th:Start building basic foundation to prepare for O lvls

6th:To be more mature

7th:Gain weight - Extremely Crucial -

8th:Reduce Self-Sabotage Behavior.. - Yes actually by listing the 7th resolution.. I'm increasing the self-sabotage behavior...damn i'm really obsessed with my weight...Really going to go crazy...How i wish one day,people will start to say.. eh charles why you dont look skinny at all now..- :(

9th:Achieve Peace&Tranquility Mind State at all times..Regardless of any critical attacks,or any problems...I will still say calm,peace,happy... not angry piss or whatsoever..

10th:To build up something,Hopefully,Be the end of it,I hope will achieve a result for that... - This sounds secretive huh? To readers out there... If you want to know... You will know when either the outcome is good or is bad.. (:

2010-12-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

Dear Blogger,

I'm so sorry! Damn busy this few days .. with outings, preparation for drama farewell, and today's drama farewell.. Thats why i din post anything... But i will when my school starts (: ... Its so much fun cycling with SL Senior during SL outing on december 20, So fun playing with Drama seniors on december 21 farewell party.. haha ! short summary (: ... Anyway, I wont be posting anything from today until 4th january.. Cause in fact, nearly everyday from now until scool reopen there are outings,event,x'mas events that can totally deplete my energy... Then its very hard to maintain Peace & Tranquility
State... Unless i'm free if anything crops up and the event is cancelled and i'm not tired i will try to blog :D Got alot to say.. just that my eye lids can closed for seeing so many words... So for now, .. let this blog hibernate for a while (:

Love You `~` -For her-

2010-12-18T00:46:00.001+08:00

Dear Journals/People/Diary/Lalala/Stupid/Dumbass... Lols.. Yeah i'm just too bored.. Driven to the verge of sanity ..

Finally its over! My birthday :) Marks a new year for me.. 14 years old ...

Harh.. which means i got more responsibility to take care of my own life which is good or bad.. And the 14th year of my life marks a big increment of homework load.. Lol either die in there.. or Survive in there and claim all A's .. Yeah of course! I will try my best to get all A's definitely.! Wont give up! :)

Love you `~`

2010-12-17T01:11:00.003+08:00

Lol ok... my anger is appeased.. mum say celebrating tomorrow... Finally,.. Can go eat at seoul garden haha ! :)

Ok its getting late... , And i guess you already in your lala land... sleep well :) Dream well :) See you soon (:

Love you `~`

2010-12-16T22:08:00.002+08:00

Haii .. Its so bored here even though today's my birthday ..

Yeah 16 december.. I was born 14 years ago on this day aha.. And Yes,I thank my Mum for battling with death itself in order to bring me to this world ... But dont know whats the problem with mum larh.. keep scolding me.. think she got menopause or what.. Annoying siarh.... My birthday present is her red packet+ scoldings.. FKED UP LARH...

Then my dad, What kind of dad is this? Never even give me a phone call or what... Or even sms.. I doubt he even remembers my birthday larh.. seriously.. And my mum keep scolding me why i dont dare to go ask him for my birthday present.. Its like whats the point? I'm not that thick-skinned to go and ask for birthday present... This type of thing. better that he ask me what i want himself right? My mum dont understands at all.. FKED UP DAy...

And she give me red packet, cause she no time to celebrate with me.. So she say she give me money so i go celebrate with my friends.. But .. Cannt even find a single person to celebrate with.. Annd you think the feeling of asking people to celebrate birthday with you is nice? usually is people want to celebrate for you derh right? I feel damn embarrased larh seriously.. like begging people to go and eat with me to celebrate my birthday.. And on top of that, I SERIOUSLY FKING SWEAR THAT I WILL NEVER EVER GIVE ANY ONE BIRTHDAY PRESENT!... EXCEPT THOSE WHO EXCHANGE BACK WITH ME.. LAST YEAR ALSO LIKE THAT, THIS YEAR ALSO LIKE THat... Seriously, if you give them birthday present, and they dont give back when its your birthday .. Whats the point?You give them is because you treasure that friendship..But if they dont, then next year dont give larh.. SORRY LARH PEOple.. to those who is reading my blog.. I'm NOT THAT RICH Ok ... Can keep giving people birthday present to everyone.. I only give to those that make a great changes in my life.. But if they dont appreciate, forget it.. Dont say i'm greedy for birthday present or what.. Its not the matter of greed, Its the appreciation of friendship ..

OK FOrget it.. Sorry for all my complains and everything.. I feel so fked up for the 14 years of my birthday.. But nevertheless, i thank everyone for all your kind wishes :) ... Greatly Appreciated :)

Also Thank YOU for wishing me :) ... At first i thought you would have forget... but nah i'm wrong..

Love you `~`

2010-12-15T16:34:00.003+08:00

Lol i'm too busy and tired this few days..Thats why i have been merging 2 days event into a single post... Partly because also nothing much to write about haha (: Yeah so this post will be Yesterday and today event. 14-15 December 2010 :)

Haha yesterday.. WAit let me think what i do yesterday?? Lol ok got it! Nth much spent whole day at home playing com using com.. Facebooking... Play grand chase..Warcraft. and duh ate meals at right times (: Message celestine at around 3 or 4? Lol Am not pm.. Haii..She everyday so late sleep..Bad for her.Good for me though.Finally can find another owl who can chat at so late...

15 Dec 2010 : Lol yeah i slept at 4 last night.But guess what? I wake up at 8.30! 4 1/2 hours only! Lol something wrong with my brain i guess.. Then watch television until noon.. Then go back deyi buy books with mum.. I see the textbook ... Ok normal people might faint.. But to me I feel so happy. Such a thick book..Can satisfy my thirst.. Well i'm not abnormal..Just a study maniac. Carry the books damn heavy!.. But lucky mum sponsor to take cab haha...Never cost alot though 7 bucks only Cause the Taxi's meter spoil.

Hmm I'm not missing you! *Bleah* You got diverted :P

Love you `~`

December 12,13

2010-12-14T00:53:00.002+08:00

Din blog yesterday.So i guess i will merge yesterday and today events together into a single post.

Lol yesterday went to Shanju House to play.Yeah Huishan organised this sort of Primary school outing. But seriously, Its kinda bored.. Everyone seems to changed alot. Cant really talk or communicate. Can feel abit distanced.Besides got 6 girls and only 3 guys went including me. But going to shanju house is a fun trip though. Play Uno, Do funny stuffs..Lying on her bed. haha her new house is nice so big and pretty. So sad, she sent her dog away..I miss it Lols (: Also got browse
through her bio textbook..

Lol i'm a study maniac right? Go everywhere also think of books *BLeH*.. Cause we reach there late, So we din play too much.Left around 6.30. Take the super long train ride from boon lay back to yishun . Then go back home, Eat dinner. Use com, And sleep..Wait talking about sleep.. Lol feel like killing this Celestine last night.. Say bye bye call her go sleep at 3.30. In the end, she reply me at 4+ .. I was sleeping so nice and comfy in my bed..and got woken up by the message.. Its because i'm too tired..Or else i would call her or sms her saying something bad.. Yeah thats my temper, Never disturb my sleep.Or else you will suffer.. especially at night.

Today woke up late.Thus time seems to be shorter. kinda bored now, Nothing to play..Nvm have to rest at home to prepare for tons and tons of upcoming events.. Lol I'm still munching on double portion of rice,Meat and vegetables per meals..But i dont seems to gain any weight anymore :( 4000 calories per day.. I already reached the target.Plus i din run alot.i just stay at home whoole day..Where did all the excessive energy converted to?Or it just disappear into thin air? :( Haii,?heard a bad news today too.. Bro moving house to Macpherson.Haii, Bro we would not get to see each other so often but i will definitely miss you!

Din think of her much,Cause i'm busy this few days. finally, Put you in suspension..

Love you `~`

2010-12-12T01:03:00.010+08:00

Lol i think i'm going to die.. 1:06 am still haven sleep..tomorrow meeting up with primary school friends.Haha shanju invited us to her house to play! Lol been years that i saw them.Dont know how tall they grow haha..

Wenshan finally give me her link for her blog..Lol unlocks lots of news haha.. To Wenshan, Do you have to spam cody simpson's song? LOl i go your tumblr and blogger my Ear very pain!! haha :)

Yeah school going to reopen soon.I want to go back to my study life..Well study is my life.. I guess next year have to chiong and chiong and chiong..Aiming for NYJC ! :) Finally, get to lead next year sec 1 in orientation..Gonna be fun man ! Lol i miss SJAB btw.. Hope all cadets are well :) SJAB FTW :),SLC FTW :),Drama FTW :)

My feelings for you went up and down..Perhaps due to my paranoid feeling...At one moment, I thought you hated me or you angry because you know..Another moment, You seems to be innocent and unknown..ZzZ I hate this feeling man... Encounter once already..Why must come back again...?Prior to this matter, 2 months ago , i'm still telling myself..I living happily because i do not like anyone..No burden on me... and i told myself not to like anyone again.Yet, see what happened now =.= ... Perhaps because i got no books to study for sec 3, I keep thinking of you.. Want to sms, but just got the f**k feeling not to.. Damn, i need my books asap! to divert her away...

I know we wont have any result,I dont planned to have high hopes..I'm stucked between totally give up or dont give up and might have chances.. `.` Damn it damn it ! Feel like saying F**k Off F**K off to the mirror or wall.. but abit dumb siarh.. Haii... Ok have to sleep..or else tomorrow dont need to go out ..

Love you `~`

2010-12-11T20:49:00.002+08:00

Damn tired..Slept at 5am last night..Weird right? After whole day of cycling, Still can sleep at 5 am.. Thats why 2pm then wake up..

Ate at KFC at 3pm..Wth..3pm considered tea-time.. yet i just ate my lunch dotz..
Nth much larh..Since my entire day is already gone due to sleeping..Played GC for few hours..Battlemage seems to be strongest..Lvl 41 actually can clear lvl 52 dungeon..Solo somemore.

Ate dinner,Eew.. damn full .. 1 sardine,2 servings or lean meats,2 bowl of rice..

Haha nth much today..Just feeling unwell in heart..Dont dare to communicate much with her..Got the feeling shes trying to distance or angry with me..Maybe i'm being paranoid..But thats what makes up my personality..Always take the worst in consideration first

Love you `~`

2010-12-10T21:47:00.003+08:00

Tiring day..But yet meaningful (: Woke up at 9am.. preparing to go cycling with Nixon at east coast.Take a nearly 1 hour bus ride.Reach there at around 12? Lol Ate lunch near parkway parade then proceed to east coast.

And guess who we saw at the bicycle shop? Xinyi! Lol thats just so coincidence..She came with her family to learn how to cycle haha.Rent the bike for 3 hours at 8 bucks..Quite ex huh? Mountain bike thats why.Started travelling all the way to east coast border.About 5km?? Then travel from there to changi beach.. Woah..That strip of road.. Is so Gay.Can never see the ending. Total got about 10km !? Cycle non stop.. But nixon bike got problem..Think is the gear thats why he seems to cycle alot but the distance moved is very short..Have to wait for him several times.

ALong the "No-Ending-Road" -Yeah i named it like that-.. , saw loads of millipedes on the floor..Might have run over few..Sorry for that..Saw changi airpot haha..And also saw alot of chameleon running..Damn disgusting.. Finally cycle cycle.. then reach changi beach.. Meant to cycle to changi hawker take a rest..Then Nixon realise the time to return bike is up! ... So no choice must rush back..Wah damn gay larh.. the "No- Ending- Road" again... i cycle and cycle and cycle as fast as possible..Leg accumulate tons of lactic acid..Keep changing gear.. finally reach there in time.. But poor Nixon, He was all the way back.. After i finish the Gay road going to reach east coast, I think he still in the middle of gay road..But lucky he used the excuse that his gear got problem..Then the guy never overcharged him for 1/2 hour. After that,he ate his lunch at mac... Damn tired.. Losing focus.. Then go find xinyi, spent a like an hour drawing words on the sand.. Then go back..Take the damn damn long bus ride...18.8 km ... =.=

Lol but leg and thigh not pain at all, its the palm and the butt ... But i guess tomorrow leg and thigh confirm will pain de..Never cycle non-stop for 30km before..And Nixon check my speed,Should be 10km/hour? lols.. i dont know larh dont care..

When i was cycling as fast as possible back to East Coast Park, I realised something. The power of love is very very strong..I wanted to rest for a while, Take a drink..But i keep telling myself.Shes waiting for me at the other end.I cannot rest,I cannot let her wait.I cannot allow my body to fail, to get tired..Even i am tired, feeling sore in limbs, I still have to carry on. And yes,I keep telling myself.Shes waiting, shes waiting , shes waiting for me...And that really helps alot. Thanks for being a support to me mentally. Thanks Alot (:

Love you `~`

2010-12-10T00:20:00.003+08:00

Suffered serious cold today...As usual ate lunch with mum.Haii meant to play badminton with nixon but keep sneezing non-stop so cant go..

Today's time seems to pass very fast.. Partly because i realised my mum nags lesser about my using computer..hoho finally job advancement..Battlemage is so cool ! Cant help feeling happy using deep impact.. XD

Lol i seems to have startled at the conversation part..our message just get shorter and shorter.. Maybe shes not interested in sms anymore..Forget about it then.. Well i cant really blame her.. I tell her to do something else ... Fine ok its my fault.. I deserve this.. Already feel f**cked up enough the whole day...Ate medicine, in the end drowsiness for entire evening, cant even climb out of bed for dinner...

I miss you,I miss your face,I miss your laughter,i miss seeing you,I miss hearing your voice,I miss talking to you face-to-face, I'm afraid we wont be so bonded the next time we see each other. I miss you alot!Haii.....

Love you `~`

2010-12-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

Another bored day has pass..And now i'm pending my history in this blog...

Wake up at 12.30..As usual, went for lunch with mum at northpoint. Spent half of my afternoon waiting for Mum cutting her hair and receiving hair treatment in the salon..wanted to cut my hair too.. but think i will get a hair cut before school reopens

Nth much to do when reach home.Play Grand chase.. facebook.. Damn it, i got cheated.. I tot just clear 1 mission then can job advancement in the end must do like 3 mission? wth... nvm my way to job advancement is still long..

Lol i feel like killing myself.I want to be noble and push them together.. But the devil in my heart did manage to control my mind for a moment..I totally got piss and flare... Though after a while, i calm myself down...Keep telling myself, Loving someone might not mean to have her in possession.. This will ring my mind when i'm controlled by devil..

They do seems to be a good pair huh?A really really good one..

Love you `~`

2010-12-07T23:23:00.002+08:00

Sore throat can you please be gone by tomorrow?lol.. Just now nose bleed.. having blood rush. Hot in face ear and limbs... red also.. i guess im too heaty..Planned to drink loads of water

I more determined not to tell you anymore. If i tell you, i'm giving you a reason to distance yourself from me. So, even you know , you cant do anything. Cant stop me from looking over you,beside you, listening to your confinement , helping you in anyway.

Feeling so hot now..The heatiness makes me feel unsleepy.. I dont know how long i can last.. Tormenting myself in between two conscience..One tells me do be selfish abit.. One tells me do be more noble.. Lol driving me out of sanity. damn..

Love you `~`

2010-12-07T14:48:00.002+08:00

Haii, Miss drama practice today .. Sore throat, Fever last night.. Lucky no flu.. Should be getting well by tonight

Lol just realised something, "Haii" has been used by me for dont know how many times.. Well just some way express how i feel..

Preparing for sec 1 orientation now..Still remember when i was sec 1, just came in..With Sean and Tammy as our student councillors. Din know my day will come so fast..Imma Sec 3 next year already! Time really flies fast huh?

Next year, dont even know got time to used com or not. Have to study this study that..Of course studying is my skills.So should not be a problem. Perhaps two years later, at this time.i would be typing, Yes! Dont know how many days after O level.. Dont know how many days before O level result release. I may be enjoying my holidays or working at that time wahaha..

Congrats to Wen Shan and Brenda.The newly wed couple.. Lol Wen shan arh wen shan you better treat mine grand daughter well..Hehes i may appear discouraging towards your marriage with my daughter on fb but actually what i'm saying here are more true (:

A day pass by..But my feelings for you just grow stronger,instead of weaker.Though ,of course i know , one day this feeling will fade.. When a value increase to its higher point , it will definitely lunge to the bottom. But as for this moment, let me be your guardian angel looking over you . Hope you take care of yourself (:

Love you `~`

2010-12-06T20:48:00.002+08:00

A tired day... Din tired myself out. but dont know why just feel tired...

Slept at 2 am last night, Wake up at 7.30.. Played badminton with Wenshan Lol.. I dont think its considered playing.. We just hit the shuttle cock while talking about some matters.. Couldn't really concentrate. Later discuss about the sec 1 orientation theme.. Hohoho i wont say it here.. Should wait until next year then people will know (: Discuss just about 2hrs? Then go eat at mac..

Wenshan arh wenshan, You sore throat, sick still want to eat Mac. Bad girl.. Lol ~just being random~ .. Sms brenda throughout the lunch session.. Shes just sitting in front of me yet i have to message her.. Lol dont think wrong arh.. We just friends.Just need to sms cause something cannot say out loud in front of others..

Lol getting tired as day pass by... Harh i know i'm suffering now, but i know that by doing this , will definitely bears the satisfactory result that i want. I had been through this once before, and i will not be so dumb to repeat my mistake. Sometimes , Words that appear from other mouth might be better than your own mouth . Of course, i definitely dont want any words to start appearing from other people mouth when they know my secret.. But if they want, then i got nth to say.

PS:The weather getting uneven nowadays. Sometime cold sometime hot, do take care of your ownself (:

Love you `~`

2010-12-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

Trying very hard not to break down.. I'm keeping all these to myself. Maybe i should be more selfish? But no, If i do that , that really insults my personality.

Let me be noble abit. I just need to be your guardian angel who watches you, listens to you , and guide you to the right path . Seeing you in possession with happiness is already a biggest prize that you have given me.

Love you~

2010-12-05T15:38:00.002+08:00

I miss the Sl alumni camp.It was so meaningful and it is really an experience for me to be out taking care of myself and out from my mum's reach. At first, i was still like Haii.. Camp.. Sian larh.. Must pack, Can sleep at night or not? Ground so hard.. is it tiring? Will it be fun.. But progressively through the camp, I tell myself. Dont care larh, Its an experience.. Charles You have to experience it.. Well over the time, my thoughts before i went for the camp got eradicated completely.. I begins to love the camp. Working with my team seems to build up my leadership skills, especially when i am the team leaders.

Of course, though it is tiring, i still enjoys rolling my eyes with Brenda .. Haha only few of us really knows what is the meaning behind it.. *Inside Joke* .. Have fun bullying Wen shan too .. See her frightened and cute face when you just boo her from the back... The night walk is funny .. Me and Brenda was the 3rd team to go.. At first we feel abit afraid of the dark when we are walking toward the hall direction.. Then we start seeing poker face, GEE , Baby baby, Cause we thought that the senior might scare us at the corner.. But lucky no one there.. Then the home econs lab the light suddenly flink .. Brenda damn epic.. She still say wah, is this meant to be a joke LMAO .. Then we walk toward the i space.. Eline and her "ghost friends" haven prepare well .. they were still talking then they see us there then they suddenly run off..Only eline stay to scare us.. Throughout the walk, Brenda keep saying die liao tomorrow we will get scolded for insulting them... The foolish thing we did was we complete the maze in I space then we realised we haven get our names.. then we walk back again.. then search for name.. then walk to the exit again so total its about 3 times? :O... Darylene definitely creeps me out.. The others still ok.. I still see jordon opening the flour then start throwing at us.. .. ?Brenda keep panicking throughout the walk, then i have to keep saying Brenda dont be scare, they are fake one.. Brenda Dont be care.. Repeating so many times lmao..The classroom mission with Kenji,Kasturi,Ai Wei and Khairi is not as scary as i space one.. I think because we spent too long completing the mission.. Thats why the concept that they are fake ghosts builds up ... In the end, we spent too long in the classroom until kenji say get out ! .. Lol i still thought hes faking thats why i thought we should not give up.. After the night walk, Talk with kairo until 5 am.. Share lots of our own secrets.. Harh..
Well Eline's talk and kasturi talk are very inspiring.. Especially Eline, The way i see her talk.. Can sense that she a very great leader.. To Eline: I see you as my role model.! (Y) Kasturi is more of the passive type, But shes very supportive too .

I guess if this camp is 3 days 2 night, It will be more fun.. And oh yeah, The farewell party.. The games thought by Wen shan is good and fun for the seniors i guessed..But overall, i think it is because of insufficient time, thats why the party din went very well.. In my view, Its not very good.. Haha, Next year our batch must planned a better one for WenShan's batch... Donavon damn epic.. At first he ate the sour sweet, he still say eh quite nice leh.. Then he bite it .. immediately went to the toilet.. And he bit my finger by abit then i was feeding him Lmao ..

Ok larh.. Thats the summary of the 2 days 1 night Sl alumni camp.. And i'm glad, I get to bond more well with my batch. And i get more closer with frederick now.. Last time, we are more of a distance.. Now we seems to work well together.. Haha Fred you are awesome..! I like when you say you can replace kenji in hosting.. Thats show how confidence you are (: !

Love you~

2010-12-05T15:26:00.002+08:00

Slept at 4 last night.. Wake up at 1.30 Wonderful .. I skip my breakfast and i eat late lunch.. Definitely will lose a few pounds damn =.=

Haii, Can we be just a friend? I dont wish to get into any conflicts with you.. If i got offend you in anyway then i'm sorry..

First time ever i message until my battery flat... Din know messaging can consume such an high amount of battery life.. Sms like 200 messages in 1 day? or 1 1/2? Thats alot i guess for me ..

Holidays kinda of bored.. cant keep jogging.. Still need to rest abit.Use come used until bored.Everyday is facebook.. Got any nice games to play or recommend?? Long time never do potrait drawing, Just did one yesterday night. Looks like i have to brush up abit.. Skills degrading .. Only 50% alike O_o Must draw as alike as last time..

I cant help thinking about you..You seems so near from me yet you seems so far to reach .. Why am i feeling this way? Perhaps i do still bear the 1 % of hope ..

Love you~

2010-12-04T15:53:00.002+08:00

Paast a few months since i updated..

Changed a blog skins,think its kinda nice.SL alumni camp is over.Tired but fun.Learnt loads of life qualities from eline and other alumni members. Its very meaningful, learnt how to build up my confidence and eradicate my inferior complexity . Now imma nt scare how others look at me .

Mum's nagging problem is increasing again.. I sleep,use com,eat,sms and even running or jogging in the morning she also want to nag about it...Wonderful thing to my ear drum.. See how long it can last =.=

I dont know why i fell for her, i tot of telling her about it at first. But now, after much thinking and reasons-wise, i think i shall not tell her anymore.. I not going to let the history repeat itself again. There is no need for me to do something that does not bears any results. So why not let her pursue her own happiness. She happy i happy, Dont worry I will support you forever (;

Love You ~

2010-07-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

long time never update.

Why must it be happening it to me?I know i did Winarti,Jordon,my mum and those who support me proud.But bearing this is also telling me that i will invite more troubles.People tend to get jealous.When you climb higher,more people will try to pull you down and when you fall,you will fall very painfully.so tell me?I didnt stir up all these first,but why you all have to do these?

If i was given a wish,i would like to have this memory repressed and never recover it again.Just like Yu hui said,just let that part of memory blank.I know it is abit pointless having a blank in part of your LTM(long term memory)but if it is something traumatic,why do i have to dig it out?Maybe 1 day i will remember?I dont know.

2010-07-14T20:56:00.003+08:00

Its very hard to lie to yourself.You can lie to others but not yourself.The moment she brush through my life,she tampered all my thoughts and memories again.A collected work of mine in a few hours/days are easily being tampered.I feel lost.My mind is blank,my school work is in a deep shit.I beginning to have troubles with my chinese teacher.i dont know why.I just dont like to do his work.I'm focusing on math now..Math kills my brain cells..Also kills my extra time thinking of her

Signing Off

2010-07-09T23:54:00.005+08:00

Dont keep asking me why.If you want to know just go find out.I'm not unhappy or sad.I'm just myself.If you all think that last time i always crazy,hyper with laughter everyday,then i'm telling you that 经一事，长一智.True,i totally agree to it.Mingyong was right,there is no way of changing yourself,you are just your ownself.You cant act mature,cant act clever and you cant act your own personalities and traits.

Its the life experience that shaped what you have become.I was immature,hyper,childish,lame and whatsoever.But its over,I dont need to be that and i dont wish to be that and luckily i'm no longer that.You guys are very greedy,when i am my oldself,you all say that i am noisy and irritating.When i am my present self,you are say that i am emo,and zombie-like.I dont know for the future self but i guess i know there will be questions over and over again.

For the one last time that i'm going to repeat myself,I'm not EMO,UNHAPPY.I'm just myself.I shaped to be quiet,is that OKAY?

Signing OFF

2010-07-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

Gonna pour out all my whole day events.

Mathematics-Still ok,learning quadratic equations and solving it is as easy as eating.Pythagoras Theorem isnt that bad,but require more practice.

Science-This is terrible.I would prefer Miss Ng to teach.The relieve teacher isnt that bad,but she just cant to keep the class quiet down and it was chaotic.Very hard to concentrate in her lesson.

SJAB-This is challenging,good and tired at the same time.Why i say challenging?Because it requires determination to hang on to the drills.Why Good?Because footdrills allowed me to focus my 100% attention to it.Tired is because of course,doing drills are tired=.=.

After SJAB at 5,i just dont know what to do.I walk towards the sch gate,but i return back to the foyer.My mind is totally blank.I just feel like no target in life.I dont know whether i should go home or not.I dont feel like doing anything.The feelings of mind blank+no friends together = lifeless,indecisive.Maybe i'm tired,and to add on to it was the matter,hence the result is mind blank.

Signing Off

2010-07-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

Its perhaps the last time i ever talk to you.

Take Care

I'm sorry for messing up with your life over the past few months.After so many rounds and rounds,we ended up being a stranger again,back to the starting point.Maybe this is a better choice?I feel very upset about it though i dont know how you feel.But if it is the best way the end this for all,i rather end it quickly than mess with each other life.

Just hope that you concentrate in your studies.Dont be affected.Live Well.

I hope that you are able to find your own happiness within happiness itself.

PS:We got to make things back where they belong.

Signing Off

2010-07-07T19:24:00.001+08:00

Why must i be so afraid about it?is there something wrong?If you dont like it its your own problem.Why must i care about how you feel,If i am unhappy with you i can just say it out.Why must i be afraid to hurt your feelings.Its very uncomfortable with all the words stuck inside your heart.

I should learn how to reject others and call others to shut up when they need to.if i dont feel like doign something i should just say No.Why must put on such a heavy burden?its very heavy.

2010-07-07T19:10:00.001+08:00

I am damn tired...Its driving me nuts.I feel like quitting.

But if i quit now,I will just let the others laugh at me."Charles,last time you die die also most go in.Now you decided to quit,how stupid you are.."-Yesh not a second thought i'm not going to quit.Homework only what.Utmost i drink many cups of coffee or anything method to make myself awake to do my work.I will not give up.I dont want others premonition to come true.

Signing Off

2010-07-04T23:54:00.002+08:00

Sorry forget to add mre things.

I also believe the traits of the centaur who is adventurous,active can help the dominant doe whereas the dominant doe can calm the adventurous centaur

2010-07-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

I can feel that piece of flame marrow burning in my body.I know i'm flaming.

It is a good thing.I admit that being flamed is much better than getting spilled by water.I know that i am now flame,i would face it more easily.

I said it few months ago.Nothing can stop me.I dont believe when a centaur and a doe meet,they will part in both ways.I believe the other half,which means a centaur is able to lure the doe out of its habitat.i believe that the doe will be fascinated by the centaur.

PS:Clever People Know What i mean

Signing Off

2010-07-01T22:16:00.002+08:00

I sincerely believe that we have to change our fate.We should not 屈服 to our fate.We should 大胆革新。

hence,I wont let my fate control me.Instead, i will do my best to change it if it needed to be change.

2010-07-01T19:06:00.002+08:00

FRom yesterday and today.I had a dramastic change.From water become fire.From quiet become noisy.From lifeless become lifeful.From calm become hyper.

Haha yeah i thought it very clearly last night.No point to emo,walk like zombie...even though its shiok i admit=.=But why cant just think in the postive way?Haha partly because a new target appeared in my life.I want to bull's eye the target.If want to be zombie,why not be more happy?Even though abit annoying sometimes,but i'm sure others wont want to see me walking without a soul barh.So if i happy my friends also happy.So why dont be happy?

Also judging from yesterday event,I guess my six sense really works.Winarti You are right.I think i can predict things very well i mean basically the others.But not her...I can read others mind averagely but not her..Haha i also dont know why?Perhaps because i like her?i need her?

Signing Off

2010-06-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes,Being Lifeless/Soulless/Zombified is a most effective method of temporary ridding of torments.When you walk,you can feel that no no you cant even feel at all.Its just like your body walking,your legs moving,but your soul is gone

I really agreed to the method cause i've been using it since that day...

Anyway today went to meet up with YTSS SJAB friends.Long time no see them..All say i grow taller=.=

This morning parade...tired but adventurous barh...tot got Keluar Baris but in the end dont have..Just like me and layguat expected,some people will be at the back saying nonsense..Just ignore them larh..=.=

PS:i regret telling out the truth.Sometimes,saying out might not be a good thing.It will be a glacier in between both of us.The glacier will take a very long time to thaw.But it isnt a good thing.Because we dont have anymore time.

Signing Off

2010-06-28T09:06:00.001+08:00

Lol now it lesson...using computer..

Sch reopen le..Ltr got SJAB training..Haiz i very speechless.D0nt know how to face them..Why?the worse had come and i'm not prepared

2010-06-25T00:08:00.003+08:00

Eh My whole arm and body is currently Suffering from Delay-Onset-Muslce-Soreness.And my hand is too painful to type..=Contributed By Standing/Fanning the Fire At BBQ&Running During Games In SL

As a result,i will just summarise the fun i had yesterday which is drama bbq and today sl meeting.

BBq is fun,exciting but too little people.20 in the end only 13 came....Hearing some of my senior talking sick stuffs...Enjoyed drawing names on the sand.O_O(hehes)...ENjoyed hearing Vincent's Terrible Scream=.=...

Sl Meeting is meaningful.Heard P And VP talk abt qualities of a leader.Learn that i am the water Element.Which is quite true as water=quiet,calm...After the talk,played games at the later part of afternoon.Fun shooting people..Hiding under the table of cybrary=.=After playing,all teh soreness gone.But after helping Senior take blazer go laundry...Reach home whole body sore badly.. play mmorpg also pain..

PS:You know?I very disappointed!!!

Signing Off

2010-06-21T22:18:00.002+08:00

But now i'm much better right?No longer zombie-like.But the impact is too great.You can say i'm blinded.It took my positive side away.Not 100% maybe 80%?

Addiction.I'm facing you again.Although this time round you are exist in another form,a much dangerous form because you are alive.I told myself i wont let the addiction hurt me in anyway like academics.Addiction you had hurt me once when you are still a non-living thing,if not for you i wont be in Deyi Secondary.Once bitten,twice shy..i wont be worried that you can harm me.

Signing Off

2010-06-21T22:11:00.003+08:00

i just feel uneasy in my heart.I dont know what to do,what to say.I'm afraid of demonstrating the anger side..

I love the Music @Above The World@ so much..Whenever i feel sad,unhappy,annoyed,all i need to do is just to listen to it.Above The World Arh Above The World.I really hope I can be Above The World..Then i wont have to care about these and that.I'm not saying that i am trying to run away from the situation.But sometimes,humans have the urge to runaway.

Now i know how Yanting,Jacinta,Benjamin,The Cybrarian,My Mum and those who saw the change in me feels.I'm sorry i couldn't find back the old-self.Not that i am tired or bored.Its just me its me...And Jacinta You are right about your words cause you are the first to see the change.

Signing Off

2010-06-20T23:26:00.003+08:00

I dont know what happened to her.She changed completely.I dont know whether is a good thing or bad thing.

But i can only say that no matter how she changed-bad or good,i will still try to wait forever wait.What i like is her her ownself,not her character or anything.I dont care she changed or not,in my eyes shes forever herself shes (surname-middle name-last name).

PS:How you feel,your emotion,your attitude.Its all very important for me to know.I have to and i need to know.

Signing Off

2010-06-19T18:19:00.002+08:00

Haiz disappointed today.Sl meeting but only me and cherilynn went..pathetic..

Yesterday night had a weird dream..Can say weird because its 99% wont be happening in real life.But its sweet too..The dream i'm not going to say.Its so significant moment.And i dont want others to give nasty comments to my memories with her.

Signing Off

Priceless Thing

2010-06-18T08:28:00.002+08:00

Blog in the morning..Cause last night lazy blog

I just realise i do not have that priceless thing in me.I never once owned it but i wish to owned it.Some people will find it priceless like me,but some people will find it worthless to the point that they can just treat the priceless thing as a game.Partly because they had too much of the priceless thing le.

If lets say about her,I dont know whether she will find it priceless.Since her reaction over the loss of that priceless thing is so great,I guess she also find that thing priceless too.Well,I rather hope that she will find that thing priceless.

Ps:Priceless Thing is not in any form of state.It cannot be seen,hear but can only be feel.

Signing Off

2010-06-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

Bored bored bored....

Thanks Jordon bro for buying me hersheys chocolate thank you very much :D

Spent my evening/night playing maple chiong chiong chiong.... lvl 49...1 more lvl my intelligence goona increase damn lot hehes..

Holiday is so boring.I want go back school see people.See how my friend change over the june holiday...

@YokeYu... Good luck staying at home alone :P(Hehes Evil Laughter)And Vincent's parent also going overseas..So coincidence..

PS:I may look normal,but you wouldn't know how i feel..

Signing Off

2010-06-15T19:56:00.002+08:00

Dinner time..And i burnt my rice overcooked...

Pathetic i wonder how am i going to score in home economics....

Talk to Yanning in evening..Damn pissed off by her.Keep saying i very moody,bored,unhappy...i just became quiet only what...Ok now i show you i very hyper okay? lalalalalalalal...

Dotz...lame childish..not funny larh

PS:Kinda obsessed with Cleric's heal..

Signing Off

2010-06-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

so tired just finished my work woo going to be 1.30 am soon

Jinxuan arhhh why did you talk to me when i am going off for dinner?in the end i get into the conversation and miss my 2x exp event...lol..

Holiday faster end i want school reopen.I want to learn ALGEBRA,sphere and all sorts of stuffs.What i had learnt during holiday is just lvling in Maple..Which is very lame and crap..

Lol tired whole day.Hope tonight can sleep well.Please i dont want nightmares or strange dreams again..

Signing Off

2010-06-14T19:36:00.002+08:00

EAting dinner SOon...

I am so pissed off by the fact ..

2010-06-13T10:56:00.003+08:00

Early morning blog...First time.......

Woke Up around 10.30 am...lol I dreamt of 2 person..Wanna make a guess??

Hehes,They are Yokehuei and Donovan.....

Crazy larh i also dont know why would make such dream.Its like the scene at quadrangle then Mr Goh say today is games day...=.=In addition,there is like so less students maybe around 3/8 of the school population...

409 class wasn't there but 408 is.Oh yeah i saw meihui too.But i just saw her then say hi like that only..

And Mr Goh called us to team up.And i got push push push dont know why ended up teaming with Donovan and Yokehuei.Then form a circle...-I also dont know why?-then for some reason yokehuei ended up in the middle.

Then again something happened...She suddenly laugh and the piece of Yupi sweet dropped on the floor.And all of us purposely point fingers at here SOSO funny...

Thats all blog later..

Signing Off

2010-06-12T01:58:00.002+08:00

Lol its 01.59 am now dont know why i chose to blog at these time...

Bored day again but today nv play com reading Books....listening to songs...Just realise how nice RAinie Yang song is.Especially Hei Se Yue Liang Omg kinda in love with it

Hear another song that gives deep meaning."Its alright its ok By ashley Tisdale"..
Love that line "I'm so much better without you,i wont be sorry" Yeah can say larh...
But can do it marh?Really Takes time lea.

Charles Elixien dislike this line but opposite of Charles who is Selrahc love that line...

Signing Off

2010-06-10T22:31:00.002+08:00

Bored Do it For Fun...

Larh larh larh larh larh larh larh lalallalalalal

:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p:p

Happy?Tired?Sad?Disappointed?Angry?Disgusted?Funny?
Lol thats all i can think of ...

Signing Off

2010-06-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

Today outing at east coast 12-around 6+.... so tired limbs gonna break soon

Wohoo when i was bathing just now i discovered that both of my lower arm suffer certain degree of sun burns.Cool even though the sun wasnt very strong but i sat under it for around 30 minutes~1 hr...Haiz if know will get sun burn should continue sit at there...

Quite fun larh playing bicycle,playing with sand,going into the water which i had not done for ages.Although very childish,it is still enjoyable.

And My mouth is so dry because i drank loads of sea water...

PS:So tired.......Talk talk talk 1 hr...

Signing Off/Eleisien

2010-06-09T00:41:00.003+08:00

Going To Be 1am...still haven sleep bored bored....i dont dare to sleep i do not want nightmares again....

You want to know right?Simple..Hint Below

You-Know-Who held You-Know-What
You-Know-What Remains Stationary
With Adequate force
It will zoom out of its way
Puzzled?
You-Know-Who is You-Know-Who
You want to know what is You-Know-What?
Clue Lies In your First Piece Of memories
See what you see but do not hear what you hear

Harh Thats All
those who are bored go guess barh

PS:You-Know-Who?You-Know-Who?You-Know-Who is you know who lorh,Applies Same for You-Know-What?

Signing Off

2010-06-08T19:18:00.002+08:00

Bored bored bored bored bored....

Went back study today with mingxun.....read finish the whole history textbook in 2 ddays.perhaps absorb around 30% of the notes barh..

Now its again our You-Know-Who Topic...

You-Know-Who arh You-Know-Who...I learnt more about you.I guess the way to communicate to you is through this way....
And dont worry i'm already on my first step to conquer you.I will prove that you are no where inferior than mathematics.

PS:I enjoy using You-Know-Who,You-Know-What and You-Know-Where to represent something that i wish to say but cannot be Known.
Signing Off

2010-06-07T20:54:00.003+08:00

Challenge

I post this partly because i am bored

"You-Know-What"-- you are just a pathetic piece of matter or for goodness sake you dont exist in solid,liquid or gaseous state so what makes you a matter.

Even mathematics is not my opponent.If i can conquer mathematics,you are nowhere inferior so dont be too happy.Even there is only 1% to conquer you i will still try to conquer you just like what i did to mathematics.

"You-Know-What"your advantage is only time but you will soon fall so dont be too happy

Signing Off

2010-06-07T20:23:00.001+08:00

Today went back school with Jordon & Nixon to study.

Do alot of maths question.Fun and challenging...After that started studying history textbook(Must get prepared first marh so that school reopen at least got sometime in my mind).

Yeah like that only...Nothing Much bored bored bored...

hope thursday hurry approach.Cause got class outing :D

Signing Off

2010-06-05T21:05:00.002+08:00

Another day pass,another day nearer to school reopen.thats cool

Yesterday night had a terrible nightmare.I dreamt of yokehuei scolding me badly.She was very fierce,angry which i did not see it before in reality.I ask her what happen.then suddenly she went on weeping and again i ask her what happen.but she just walk away and go em0 saying she is very disappointed in me...

Weird but scary dream.Lol what did i do wrong?haha

Signing Off

2010-06-02T18:13:00.002+08:00

sooooo bored and tired today....Slept thru the whole afternoon.i've got a bad nightmare.I dreamt of me discovering our school rooftop suddenly got a shopping mall.Then inside got alot of people restaurant,kfc...

Damn scary la i and my friend at first shock but ltr discover the people there abit weird.Soon we are so afraid and we hurry take lift go back down to school...Then we still have to act like we dont know they are spirits or non-human in case we got into danger...

The dream is crap lo.Dont know why i will make such a dream.Going back to school tomorrow to study.Time to get my engine working or else holiday reopen all the linear,simultaneous equation all forget.

Oh man,i am so disappointed

Signing Off

2010-05-31T20:55:00.002+08:00

Today workshop is fun.Teaches us how to improve on public speaking.

I try if possible to You-Know-What For You-Know-Who.I really appreciates Mingyong's determination.I must say whoever is with him is a lucky girl.Again i said,I will You-Know-What for you.

Its Time to sharpen my determination and patience.

Wait,wait,wait,wait,wait,wait,wait long long.......

Signing Off

2010-05-30T23:04:00.002+08:00

Haiz....I wish you those who is taking O level MT good luck tomorrow.Especially to: You-Know-Who,you better score well or you have to do one thing for me

I break the rules...I am not suppose to contact You-Know-Who.Its You-Know-Who's O level tomorrow.I should not disturb You-Know-Who.I am really sorry.I couldn't control myself.I just want to hear You-Know-Who's voice.I just want to wish you good luck.

I still do not have the courage to face the fact.I know i am escaping for a while but if thats the case i am really sorry.I dont know what You-Know-Who is thinking about.It looks like You-Know-Who is no longer awkward over You-Know-What.Now its my turn.I am facing the awkwardness You-Know-Who is facing over the You-Know-What once.....

Happiness Is Selfish,Thus Possesing You Will Make Myself Selfish

Signing Off

2010-05-30T00:18:00.003+08:00

I keep on hearing all the words you-know-who said.I keep seeing images of you-know-who.I told myself i have to put all these things apart first.Just take it as if i am being foolish and avoiding matters.

But i still do not have the energy to face you-know-who.I need time to do it....

This is a important month for me.My future lies in there.

Signing Off

2010-05-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

Today is Vesak day.Went to yeeru house and play with dennis,mingxun,cherilynn,pimnara and diana.Quite fun playing UNO and stepmania.At least it prevented me from thinking wrong throughout the afternoon.

Holiday has started.I have to change it.Whenever i saw the pair of eyes,I felt disappointed,frustrated and sad.I will never do it again anymore.There is no going to the past.History is history.History will never change,modified or repeat itself.

disapointment

Signing Off

2010-05-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

Deyi 30th anniversary.....Well done to all people participated in it.I really wish could turn back and we are still doing our jobs in the anniversary.Even though it was tired wearing the court shoes,its quite fun and the atmosphere was great.

Finally the anniversary ended.I guess the upcoming holiday is the time for me to think deeply and choose the path i want to go.It is also the time to change my mindset.I hope after the holiday i will be another person.Ridding of all my past

Signing Off

2010-05-26T20:05:00.001+08:00

너무 피곤 오늘 haiz ... 어제 ptm 때문에 피곤하지만, 그것의 종류의 재미는 어쨌든 오늘은 30 주년에 대한 sl 리허설 ""연습하지만 난는 또한 아무것도 거기에서 빈둥거리고 절대 안그래.

그녀가 왜 그렇게 나를 대접해야합니까? 왜 그가 그런 행운이? 그는 단지 그녀를 물어 그녀는 내가 it.Why 문이 안 열려 허용 태어나다 2 년 이전에 무엇입니까? 그는 정말 행운이다

나는 매우 painful.I 내 감정을 충당하지만 좋은 하란에 빠진 게 아니 사실 난 그냥 줘요 ... 누군가로 찌르는 것 같은 느낌 줘요 ...에서 더 이상 전쟁이 끝날이 그것을받을 수 없어 출혈임을 알게 죽어가는 느낌 시도 느낌 하루.

Signing Off

2010-05-24T18:54:00.002+08:00

Tired Tired Tired...Only A word To describe today = Tired.I played the unconscious role i the emergency exercise.They make up me until half of my face is wounded with blood and my lower right arm but its kinda cool looks real.

Luckily,all i need is just to lie down there.Then the Mr Ali so emotional keep screaming shaking my body>i want to laugh also cannot..finally the stretcher arrive and Jinxuan they all carried me down.At the first aid post,I can hear Celestine saying she going to vomit seeing the "real" wound.

Well thats all,I guess if really there is casualties we will are going to die since the junior first aider were not properly trained to deal with such incident and some of the fake casualties have to wait for 30minutes before the stretcher arrive...

Tired Tired tired...i am very tired of my life.Just go on ba and leave without me first.I've got no mroe energy to catch up with you anymore.I am challenging against you and Time at the same time.How am i suppose to deal with it?

PS:Can we be back to the past?Being Normal?

Signing Off

2010-05-23T23:17:00.002+08:00

Sunday... A day more to School.I love school.Much better than staying at home bored to death and tired..

Nth Much today....Manage to play Final Fantasy 8 on Pc and just had a haircut.Much neater now.Yeah Thats All..

P.S.:Is she pissed off?I want to read her mind and know how she feels

Signing Off

2010-05-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

Saturday...a very bored day....Lol morning go to 365 for my grandma's death anniversary.after that go back home then dont know why keep sneezing until fever 38 degree Celcius

Chat wif Yoke Huei around 2+,lying on bed using phone...She so funny mumbling to her ownself doing zong her tian kong.Then ask her she what religion,she replied:"dont tell you"....Lol last time ask her UDC join what?also say dont tell you...little weird.And she taking her revenge by stopping me to hang up the phone since i always do that to her.

Fortunately i ate fever pills and doze off so she just hang up.Feel Kinda guilty about that.Blame myself for dozing.Night time feeling better but still sick and runny nose but Mum force me go the "3 steps and kneel event"Tiring hurt my knees but its only a hour...

I dont know what she is thinking

Signing Off

2010-05-21T19:49:00.002+08:00

Tired Day spent my whole morning polishing boots...Learn new chapter today in maths.Quadratic Functions....Quite Simple no problem.

Borrowed Long pants from Mingyong for 30th anniversary rehearsal.So weird very funny....And Yanting was saying i look like Mingyong -_-...Wore the marching shoes.Nice sound when walking got the kiang kiang sound....

Kind of sad.Cindy is leaving from us and going back to Taiwan and never come back.We bought a cake for her today and lots of people cried including her.Haiz If i got the chance to turn time back,i will know her more and be a better friends with her.

Just like relationship,we always regret for making the wrong choice.But whats the point?Time cannot be rewind.We cant blame anyone but ourself.Its all our own fault that we did not Stick To The Status Quo.Who can we blame?

Signing Off

2010-05-20T19:46:00.001+08:00

Today is a very tiring day for me.Morning already got 3 announcement involve me and in the end i dont know which to go for sjab,science or sl...but since they say sl attendance compulsory then of course i take the top priority.

Just feeling lifeless today.Morning go through paper then after that recess.After recess sleep wake up sleep wake up sleep wake up then VE.Then boring talk lesson end.Went for the aquaponics talk.Sacrifice my stomach....

I feel very tired mentally and physically.Physically is because my whole arm pain including biceps,triceps.And my shoulder and chest.Reason:I overplayed badminton in 3 days..
Mentally nothing to say.Just feel tired and i dont wish to say either.

Life Is Tired For Me 1/10...

Signing Off

2010-05-19T17:50:00.002+08:00

Today is UDC.I didn't win cause i was nervous at the first match and i failed to coordinate well.And sadly for helios there is no second match so unfair damn the Mr GOH.

I try to walk out of the darkness.Whenever i see your face or i talk to you,I feel a temporary of calmness.However,thing turns pretty bad when you are not around.I just cant help thinking about that matter.I really dont understand why am i subjected by misfortune while others can be subjected by luck.

There are sayings about how precious a guy's tears are.Thats why i will not drop a single tear until the climax.I will hold it and i have to.I will face the reality.I believes time heals and the scar will remained as memories.But i also believes it will take a very long time.

Signing OFF

2010-05-18T18:38:00.003+08:00

My Life Goes On the Same everyday.I am really very sorry.I should not force you into anything without knowing the reason.Its very foolish of me to do that.Forgive Me....I apologise for it.

Dont worry i wont let my lifelessness affect tomorrow UDC.I want to make helios house proud.I will give in my best.

2010-05-18T18:33:00.002+08:00

First of All,I am really grateful for scoring 65%.

To ALL Of My NT Friends:I really hope you guys will work hard and get into NA.Be motivated at least in NA you can pursue at a higher level of academics.GO if you are qualify for it i give you all my support.

I know i am selfish by doing this.I know i should not say.But at least at the end of the day you will know what i had done was meant good for you.I dont wish to see you suffer in pain,you are one of my best friend EVA.I am Sorry Friend This is at least what i can do for you as a friend.Take Care

Please dont let the setback affect you.Be Motivated.You have my support.I want to see the motivated of you.I will always there for you if you need my help.Please Cheer Up It pains me to see you demoralised.

Signing Off

Darkness

2010-05-17T20:58:00.002+08:00

Correct Predictions...Even though i was kinda upset i got no As for my Main Subjects but the god heard my prayers.Indeed,i got all of my subject B3 Or B4 Or Bs...But Strange no Cs And Fails...
Kinda Upset At My Lit Mark....35/60 Art 59/60.... Damn I just need 1 more to make my overall from B4 to B3...

Life is so weird.Sometimes people are luckier than you...But when they ran out of luck they see you also very lucky...What Can You Say?UDC is coming but i've got no confidence i will win or whatsoever..I am afraid of all those goldfish staring at me if i accidently let the shuttlecock drop on the floor...

I dont wont to undergo all these again.I said i want to be lifeless i dont freaking care about anything from nowons.I just do what i think is right.Just Do It To My Principles.Everybody Dont Even think of changing what i feel.Its My OWN FEELING OKAY?I am already Sec 2 I Know what i am doing.

Sec 2 Life Sucks...I hate Sec 2

Signing Off

Near Death

2010-05-16T18:42:00.004+08:00

Near Death Experience....

I was Crossing the road just now with a empty mind then i see no car so i just walk then suddenly i saw a car speeding to me...

In a instance,a hand pull me back.It was a middle-age man.He saved my life..Or else i will be in the hospital..

The experience was kind of shockness instead of traumatized.That says that when crossing the road better have a clear mind

Signing OFF

2010-05-16T12:58:00.002+08:00

That Picture Resembles My Life..

Sec2 A darkest moment in my life...Thats how i feel throughout the whole last night.Friendship,Issues,Grades,Study,Relationship,Stress.From the start of the sec 2 life,i already undergoing the massive challenge which some of you know...

See maybe it doesn't seems to be the darkest moment of your life but it is to mine...Speechless.....

Signing OFF

Blog Alive !!

2010-05-15T16:51:00.005+08:00

Haiz very long time never post already yeah its kinda of bored so i will just revive my blog.Aw i feel sad with my life....Science B3 Geography B3----not very good to my standard.

I feel very lifeless.Can i just go die?Its very fast just run to the middle of the road to get bang down by the car fast and painless....

Everyone say i looked like zombie...its kinda true i know when i walk its only my limps moving..when i talk is when only my mouth move..?Who knows the reason?Myself..

Signing OFF

Drama outing

2009-06-15T23:38:00.002+08:00

Ok Long time nv come back.....Today went to drama outing at east coast park.Went There cycle for few Kilometres then stop cause feeling tired lol in the end just push the bicycle to someone haha afterwards went to the beach me Eugene Nixon Mervin went digging a hole in the sand ha we manage to dig until where we can see water underground.Thats explain of a well perhaps.LOL Nixon say the surrounding of the hole looks like CHI-BI which means Red Cliff after the water entered the hole and the sand sortta fell then Nixon says Chi Bi Red Cliff got attacked by Cao Jun WAHAHAHA.Afterwards we had bbq yeww so full even thought the food does not seems filling.Bryon and some of the seniors hide the waterbomb and throw at other people then everyone seems crazy lunging water bombs at each other Luckily i did not wet my whole shirt like Bryon and other drama seniors.It was very fun and we play mafia in the end.Even bought a cake for Helena,Kenji,Jamie-i am sorry if i spell their names wrong-.Well its very fun i tink hope to have more of these outing sad for those Sec 4 since this is their final years

Talk about yesterday

2009-06-05T21:49:00.002+08:00

Lol lets talk about yesterday,Got drama rehearsal at 1p.m.Dont feel like eating so just grab a chicken pie at 7 Eleven.I was scare i thought i was late cuz its already 1p.m. however when i reach my school CD shelter all i see was 1 senior and few teachers....-Did'nt expect people to be later than me hahaha.After realize that those crews in CD-shelter are Curtain Managers...Dotz... nvm Learn Experience haha.I was so delighted that the drama teacher announce there is going to be a DRAMA outing on 15 June 2009 at East Coast Park.I tink its going to be super duper ulter fun.Hope that day come Oo and just had a Ultimate KFC dinner so full^-^

Blog Revival And 1/6/09

2009-06-02T21:41:00.002+08:00

Yo! i'm back lol sorry lots of event happening few days ago and still got many photos to upload but i wont be doing that cuz so bored still nid to transfer from phone.Well here to revive this near-dead blog.Lets start from the adventure of mine during yesterday 1/6/09.Well its holiday,Renwei sortta create this Jiemin P6 2008 gathering.Sadly only few turns up.At first we wanted to have our lunch at KFC but there isn't any place so in the end we ended up eating japanese food.Lol the seafoood pasta reminds me of the muscle i ate in australia in my fren and how we compete haha thats so funny.Then we watched Night In The Musuem 2 its so funny i really regretted for not watching the episode 1.I HIGHLY recommend to grab a ticket at either GV or Cathay and watch this movie.Lol and me,Junwei and Renwei share the $9 combo .The popcorn.... Omg we spent 4 hours eating eat
After we finished watching the movie Renwei was like carrying the popw-corn while we was playing at Time-zone.lol everyone just grab 1 and 1 in the end from 1+ when we bought the pop-corn we finished it at 6+.Longest Record of eating pop-corn haha wonder and enter the Guinness world record ......-charles can u dun be so lame......K BYE BYE

Whole day

2009-05-26T19:27:00.005+08:00

Oo sad i left the library without taking the Ez-link card hope that it will still be in the cupboard if nothing went wrong lol today so funny everyone was playing STRESS like mad.Lol no lesson at all except literature.Well i so sad la just because need money to buy a transit card in the end just ate a bread for dinner..... Still got the make-up course lol the instructor was nice.But that Sean and meckanzie force me to make extra make-up.My eyes like got punch haha.
Lol See my fren playing stress

This is memory game.See pimnara so stressed because she choose the wrong card

Memory Game...

In library

2009-05-26T16:06:00.002+08:00

Well,obviously i am in the library waiting for the Make-up session to start.Sianz..Lol Yi Xiang playing pet society,Sean give him item.Lol his account so good so many item-my pet society account SUX!Now Aida talking to Sean and Yi siang concentrating on playing pet society mervin playing my phone

A Fun but tired day

2009-05-25T19:34:00.001+08:00

Lol,T0day such a tired day.Morning was fun though watch movie for geography,Maths teacher never come play poker cards.Besides that still watch Connectors during Mother Tongue lesson haha.Well after that of course is drama practice.Wowo,so funny and by the way get to know more about Kenji.Also abit slack slack lor.哈Looks like i did not choose the wrong CCA.But so bad that Fiona keep making fun of my hairstyle.Drama finish then that Janelle keep chasing me like hell on the train. So tired la dinner ate Sake Don at Northpoint anyway its delicious.While walking home still saw my primary school.Haiz give me many memories.However,I know we must look forward instead of looking backward.+ 1 more thing my fren caught playing poker cards and then our co-form teacher tore the whole deck of card which cost 17SGD LOLS.

2009-05-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Well Its 1 hr to my sleeping time.Omg y do i suddenly have the urge of going to school.Feel like going to school is going to a paradise haha.Maybe because i wanted to attend drama practice anyway,everybody good night

First Day of Blogging

2009-05-24T15:18:00.002+08:00

Hi,I just created this blog and i wanted to find out how many of my friend manage to discovered it.Well just a message for those discovered it please post your comment in the chatbox.Thanks very much i will post my feeling everyday on this blog wahahha

*Charl‘s Life*